Raw Night.

I realize I still can’t come into terms with the fact that Kak Suhaidah will never be working with me and the Carnival ever again. Even though I had just another four working days with Escape Theme Park, I made me feel so upset and I dearly miss the past when Elaine and Suhaidah were our supervisors.

During Echo Delta, Dhaifina and I had break together and she wept uncontrollably at the Operations Room and seeing her all teary and choked made my tear reservoir almost burst, too. When we were about to leave the Ops Room, our Duty Manager, Imran suddenly walked in and we were shocked to see each other.

Unexpectedly, Imran initiated a nice talk with the both of us. He counseled us both and I suddenly came to realized there was a decent MANAGER in the park, but alas, he’s not in our department. He actually had the patience to spend some time with us and shared his experience and some words of advice.

When the evening comes, we were glad that we were all busy with the closing procedures. Soon, when the daily takings were finally deposited, most of the former Carnival staffs was already present. Then waves of raw emotions hit us and most of the ladies wept openly as Kak Su thank each and everyone of us personally.

Elaine came back for the final briefing, too. Seeing her sitting at the usual place — in front of Vertical — had my memories come flooding back and those were as fresh as a slap across my face. Recalling the times she had just too much bloopers and tongue twisters during briefing just make me wished nothing of this sort ever happened. And I almost convienced myself these are just a dream, a nightmare.

We took photographs, and more, and even more photographs. Because photographs are the only memories now, and for the future. The fragility of human minds and it’s life just cannot store it all — and that’s the reason why if I should hate life.

We spent more time over at Al Fresco. We snap and snap and snap more pictures for rememberance. It just kind of feels right and good with all those former colleagues literally flying around entertaining us. Thinking back, I felt so lucky, so fortunate, to be part of this wonderful family.

And who should I thank for the chance to be able to become part of this family? Kak Suhaidah. If not for her, I would have left during my initial days. If not for her, I would have left this Carnival especially under the control of my current Manager.

Departures are always the hardest. That moment is nothing but raw emotions.

Kak Su has the wicked habit of saying the most emotional things. I vividly remembered before her maternity leave, she said, “this is my best team, and I want to see everyone like this again when I come back.” Today she said, “Elaine is my top prize. All of you here are my prizes.”

My Awesome Colleagues.

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All these pictures are pictorial evidence that she is the most awesome supervisor. She won the trust and heart of all of us. Imran said if we could give Jevin sometime, she could maybe become the next Suhaidah. You know what? Never will there be this day because Kak Su herself is unique, is awesome, is responsible. She was, and will only be, the source of morale for all of us.

No longer will we have laughter and fun in the Carnival.

No longer will we come to work to joke, instead of work.

No longer will there be a woman just like a mother to us, at work.

No more smiles to flood and suffocate everyone.

No more hilarious briefings.

No longer will Carnival brighten up again.

Ever.